euphoria

seeing everyone
standing around

seeing everyone
staring on and on

seeing everyone
with their mouth open

seeing everyone
simply turned on

i can do anything
i can say anything

i have he proofs
i have the moves

i have the glitter
to make everyone shatter

i have the dream
as good as it seem

whatever i have to do
whatever i have to say
whatever i have to dream about
whatever i have to be ashamed of

to reach that state
the state on the plate
after i finished the slate
without any debate

is my euphoria.

think

what have i done.
what have i said.
a lot.

a LOT.

i have been a traitor.

i have been an enemy.
while being a best friend.

i have been a truthful person.
and a hurting one.
and a hurt one.
and a hurting one.
and a hurt one.
and a hurting one.

i have been a talker.
talked with my mouth.
without my eyes.
without my ears.
without my mother's mouth.
without my father's mouth.

i have been a listener.
a constant listener.
constant.
too constant.
one can only be a listener for that long.
and one will have to balance it.
by throwing it out on another group.

i have been a waiter.

i have been a hoper.
for a thing that i shouldnt hope.
and because of that.

i have been a traitor.

will i be clean enough,
to at least see my eyes in the mirror.

will i be clean enough,
to at least make a way for oxygen in my nostrils.

will i be clean enough,
to just think.
think.
think.
you.
me.
think.
us.
think together.
me.

la li la argh

went there
been there
i knew why i was there
i knew who would i be with there
i knew who would i meet there
i was not sure what to expect there
i was not able to force myself to find out
i was excited
i was thrilled
i was panicking
i was crazy
i was happy
i was nervous

whatever i found there
whoever i was with
and wherever i would be
i felt great
i felt accompanied
i felt there are finally people around me
i felt there are finally another living soul talking to me
i felt there are finally a person
a person other than my reflection
talking to my ears
looking to my eyes
calling to my name

if only it could last forever
if only it could last at leas a day longer
or at least few hours longer
i could die even before the extension started
no use
but at least i will still be happy
for an extra few minutes
if only

but aniway,
it was great.
thnks guys

yay...

the suffering.
the pain of those people.
the story.
the tears.
the sweat.

feel it in my heart.
feel it in your eyes.
feel it with your ears.
and with your skin.
with your tongue.
with your head.

if i am to be there.
if i am to feel it there.
if i am have to be there.
if i didnt choose but aniway im still there.
if i never even dreamt of it but still being there.
if i have tried everything to not be there but still be there.
if i better die than being there.
if i die.
if i die.
if i fucking leave this fucking life.
if i can die.
it would be like,
dead.
its fucking awesome.
fucking die this fucking time.

yay.