think

what have i done.
what have i said.
a lot.

a LOT.

i have been a traitor.

i have been an enemy.
while being a best friend.

i have been a truthful person.
and a hurting one.
and a hurt one.
and a hurting one.
and a hurt one.
and a hurting one.

i have been a talker.
talked with my mouth.
without my eyes.
without my ears.
without my mother's mouth.
without my father's mouth.

i have been a listener.
a constant listener.
constant.
too constant.
one can only be a listener for that long.
and one will have to balance it.
by throwing it out on another group.

i have been a waiter.

i have been a hoper.
for a thing that i shouldnt hope.
and because of that.

i have been a traitor.

will i be clean enough,
to at least see my eyes in the mirror.

will i be clean enough,
to at least make a way for oxygen in my nostrils.

will i be clean enough,
to just think.
think.
think.
you.
me.
think.
us.
think together.
me.